I'm once again being use. After all this time, i'm being used again. Life have being hard, i have drift away from what i used to think as "best" friends. I make new friends though but they have their own life to spend. My family matter are getting worse and worse. I'm getting again, Bad habits are coming back. i got to stop this before i turn into something i dun like or something that scare my frenz away.

I was nv close to my classmate, onli a few of them. But after this attachment i realised that even those i though are to me or i was close to was not as close as it seem to be. Always asking to kill myself is being stupid. Killing myself is not going to solve anything i know that, but at time when i really needed support i was alone. i cannot blame anyone but myself for being helpless and useless. School i'm not very good at it. Making myself sound like good is one thing, showing it is aby other thing. trying hard for something, others always say i nv jus because they nv see it with their own bloody eyes.

Earning money nw is what i need to. i need to clear my debets. but time does not allow me to do so. and my f***ing dad is getting on my argh.... i dun wan to say any more.