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Sunday, May 29, 2005
jus nw was playing with game then my mother have to chase me away coz she wan to play... duh fine so she bought this com ok lor let her play...... cannot say anything.... nw i nth to do.. chatting online but very little people online.... n tat person i don't like online... stupid lor... nvm tat... haiz still very sad abt things how... wat to do ... cannot kill myself.... nvm... this is my life.... people i know all have happy famliy tat don't fight for 11 years straight in a row... nw still fighting... then my sis like very day not at home.... i'm living in hell.... people always say....home sweet home.... me..... home kill me.... haiz....
nw i have so many people tat hates me... how am i going to live like tat.... in darkness forever i think... if not wat.... once i come out of darkness everyone will stare at me as if i'm some monster so i stay in the dark lor..... wat else can i do.... cry cannot also no use wat it onli help to destress myself... then nw n level coming... how to study with all this problem around me.... very sian one lor.... 'kill me'....
my parent can nv know abt this... coz they will nv help.... they onli say..' this is ur own fault own problem...who ask u to do so many thing... nw get urself in to trouble liao la'.... they always sat this when i try toking to them.... n it suck... so forget it .... it nv works.... haiz.... feel like crying again.... don't know y i jus seem to cannot get the sad staffs out of my head
ok la think tat all lor bye bye cry
blogged @8:49 PM
Saturday, May 28, 2005
y y ..... i know i lie alot but i change i try my best to change y do people still look down on me izzit the way i tok or wat TELL ME.... I CANNOT TAKE IT ANYMORE IT HURTS ME WHEN SOMEONE JUDGE ME BY MY LOOK N SAY U R NOT TRUSTWORTHY.... IT HURTS ALOT.... i have try my best to change in everything i do.... have i not behave well enough in front of everybody or wat... i cannot take it liao pls help me y do they judge me by my look .... do i look bad evil..... y.... this is how i look like i can change.... how? i cannot change my look i'm the way i am.... if tat is the case fine tell me in my face... y do parent have to scold them for mixing with me..... is not their fault for knowing me... is me i'm the one tat go up to them n make frenz with them...... is me my fault..... not them.. y scold them for my fault.....
i live in hell...... people in sch hates me.... my famliy don't like me..... they think i'm trouble to them...... then y in the first place am i here for.. is not as though i wan to be here to suffer all this pain...... if this is the way i should suffer for my bad doing..... y don't jus finish my life instead... i have very nice frenz who are true to me who are nice to me.... help me when i'm in trouble..... i really thanks them but wat did i give in return...... more trouble... trouble with their famliy their parent......
i really really don't wan this to happen anymore...... if there is a need to leaves them to stop more trouble from happening to them fine i will.... i will leaves them... jus tell me..... get lose u have bring alot of trouble to me oready...... i hate u..... i will get lose forever......
blogged @9:29 PM
today ok la..... not so bored lor.... first of all i woke up at 11 this morning pretty late lor.... nvm tat... later which i when to my frenz house to help them with their project.... but don't think i help in anything.... haha.... then we watch hunted mansion this how it is spell rite.... nvm then we did nth... haiz..... stay for like the whole afternoon to watch movie..... when back home at abt 630.... ya 630.... then reach home nth to do nw watching moive again.... today is more like a movie day..... cool
monday going out with my frenz to orchard to walk n buy things i think..... haiz my frenz jus msg me.... n guess wat... his parent don't like me... c nobody like me face it i suck..... this is my life life of hates.... people hates me for who i am... even if i try my best to behave at people house..... i don't know y? am i tat bad..... i think yes... with the number of parents n people tat hates me yes i'm very bad i suck tat the truth..... think tat it everybody hates me tat the end of me..... i should try not to go to other people house then sry guys if i even get u in trouble with ur parent becoz of me.......... sry
think tat all for nw bye
blogged @8:24 PM
Friday, May 27, 2005
today is the death day for me......... parent meeting session n guess wat.... i pass onli 2 subjects cry......my father came onli at 3 plus....... don't know wat to do lor....in front of my teacher.. my father act as if he going to do something abt my result like tat.... haiz..... sad lor i try very hard liao then overall i still fail so many...... like i cannot pass like tat.... haiz.... nvm tat....... worst my n level coming in less then 3 month........ wat to do... onli can study harded then i use to...... don't how to live like this.... sad.... anyway.... then i hurt my ankle 2 days ago.... on my way to school ouch.... very pain.... but nw ok liao....
this coming holiday like not holiday lor.... first week go school everyday.... then worst still prlim oral for eng.... second week most of the day have to go school also...... then onli third week free...... fourth week have to stay at home to help my sis to clean up my father's house the whole week lor..... cannot go out then sch reopen liao stupid rite.... don't know wat to do lor.... nvm this is my life wat to do haiz.... feel like crying liao
then nw don't know wat to do haiz... very sian..... then joanne they all having their o level chi next week mon.. this week they are having alot of test n exam.... i think.... then thanks to them we don't have chi this whole week becoz our chi teacher have to stay with the express student to help them.... today is one of the sad day i ever have.... cry.... sad argz....today everybody like not happy lor all becoz of the result... so stupid... nvm.... wat to do nw then my frenz cried think becoz her father scolded her..... very bad rite... bad father bad bad father... very bad... haha nvm... rite think i have nth to do say liao... haiz bye bye cya guys....
blogged @6:37 PM
Monday, May 23, 2005
today is a very boring day........ very very boring day rotting at home..... no hw to do i think..... well nvm...... nw still rotting..... very sian... whole day playing game n game onli.... nth yo do at all then my mother have to come disturb me haiz nvm tat.... nv one day can she leaves me alone ..... don't like her today.... stupid..... help me so sian nth to do can die one u know... nth to do i guess today also nth to type lor..... haiz ok la bye bye lor
blogged @8:13 PM
Friday, May 20, 2005
i fail my poa 7.5 over 50 very badly done..... haiz....nvm then one of my frenz here is playing ma jiang.... so young then play liao haiz .......nw they kanna scolded by u know who in the library stupid rite..... haiz... he still playing the game after being scolded nw he is TOKING on the phone so LOUD very very very LOUD i hope he C wat i say...... haiz then two other sec one have to sit outside of the room.... so sad.... wat r they thinking playing toking out loud then scolded by u know who haiz nw he don't wan to return the phone..... so bad ... very very very bad.... nvm him..... nw he sitting beside me don't know wat to do like toot toot like tat
i'm sure later he going to take back the phone to play AGAIN...... how i know coz he very playful.... tats how i know.....parent meeting day coming soon don't know wat to do think i going to fail 4 subjects then pass onli three... sad rite nvm... c i was rite he took back the phone nw playing with it again......nvm hey guys when u free u wan to go c dogs.... u know dogs.... mr frenz here kanna scolded by the owner of the phone for playing.... so playful very very hahaha.....
but nvm la he still so young onli sec 1 still have not grow out of their pri 6 year yet..... he kanna say by some other people so funny hahahahaha stupid.... then i have another frenz close the door very hard.... so scary....... haha like real...... nvm nw he counting how many nvm i type... lame rite...... haha he is like tat one lame..... ahh tats all la no more to say liao bye bye
blogged @3:35 PM
Thursday, May 19, 2005
AH.............. i fail three subjects liao..... die.... i fail... ermmmmm my maths both..... haha nvm fail also nvm i like fail from pri 1.... hahahaha stupid...... ok then i also fail my geog.... cool rite 4.5 over 25..... hahaha nice rite my best mark i ever get for geog.... stupid..... but i pass most of my subject..... i got A2 for my chem.... erm then my phy i got C5 hahahahaha ... then chi got B3 n my eng is C.............6 hahahahaha my eng suck.... so don't care.... i fail my poa..... badly haha so... like i care.... nw onli waiting for my ss to come back..... i must pass my ss.... if not i DIE......
then this few days got FILE CHECK........ HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA DIE...... y my file not perfact lor.... not all la... onli my poa n n n n no more...... the rest i hand up liao.... not my e math file n my chi file..... hahaha y am i laughing for not funny....... dotz.... lame....
then my prlim coming AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH don't wan ..... i'm dying..... ahhhhh help me...... nvm..... my oral eng..... then ss paper... then i don't know liao .... coz.... teacher nv tell me......hahahaha.... y am i laughing not funny.....
holiday coming like not coming like tat... have to come back for extra lesson... then oral.... then got soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo many hw.... kill me kill me KILL ME ....... i'm dying..... blood coming out of my mouth....... then my eyes coming out too then my MY MY MY AHHHHHHHHHH DYING DYING DYING .....AHHHHHHHHHHH I'M DYING HAHAHAHAHA DIE BLOOD COMING OUT FROM
EVERY WHERE..... EVERY WHERE... HAHAHAHA nvm sorry ...... rite tats all for today bye bye c ya
blogged @6:00 PM
Friday, May 13, 2005
yeah common test finish liao ..... so happy... but my oral coming sian...... yesterday go watch movie with the whole school..... the show was pretty gd haha... anyway.... i very bored nw later have to do hm alot lor.... stupid teacher then still have file chack shit...... nvm... then today by rite have TAS but i cannot go father don't allow... then ms choo say cancelled don't know y? then junkai say is my fault..... i nv do anything lor..... like i don't wan to go like tat... i nv feel bad abt thing tat i nv do ;p...... haiz..... i very very bored nw then my sis nw going mad.... haiz.... wat to do wat to do..... nw have to wait for my result to come onli so far pass one fail one.... haiz.... think i nth to say liao.... bye
blogged @1:51 PM
Thursday, May 12, 2005
tml is my last paper... poa but no mood to study don't feel like studying coz of someone ....sad haiz.... nvm lor anyway i still going to fail my poa so wat haiz..... today really very sian lor... don't know y don't feel like doing anything... ..... watever.. tml going to watch movie with the whole sch... sch treat us one cool rite.... haha but we watching coach carter... i think this is the name bah.....nv heard of it lor.... lolz....nw watching tv n doing nth.......
yesterday so angry with my mother..... she have to touch my thing then throw them away.. so angry... too much lor tell her not touch my thing liao still touch then some more throw it away....ahhhhhhh haiz nvm... forget it.... then she have to scold me when she is in the wrong..... ahhhh.nvm nw our sch internet cannot use blogger.. so angry also .... y must they do this..... so stupid lor.... nw can onli update my blog at home.... somemore at home i can onli use the net for some time .... coz my sis don't allow me to use it all the time.... haiz.... y my sch like tat one... hai yo...
then i nw rotting at home don't know wat to do after my common test... study study n study i think till my hair turn white... cool haha nvm... guys when will we get to go together again? my sis going out nw but she say i can onli the net till 10.... sad...... nvm.... haiz... look i don't know wats with me but i'm really very unhappy nw a days... but don't know y? izzit becoz of my frenz... nope izzit becoz of my study i think so.... or izzit becoz of my relationship i hope not.... think is becoz of my frenz not joanne they but some other people from choir i don't know wat i have done apart from i always giving them bad attitude other then tat i don't know liao.... then every time c me like saw some monster like tat or like they nv know me before like tat lor.... haiz wat to do .... ah... i still trying to change my attitude.... hope i have change......i have stop telling lies.... which is gd.... then i think i had stop using ****..... at least i nv heard myself saying those words...... then i started studying which is the most unlikely thing coz i nv like studying.... haiz.... well think tats all i can say for nw.... bye bye ........
blogged @7:53 PM
Sunday, May 08, 2005
yesterday go jo house to study phy n poa i got study one ok...... after tat do nth haha.... jo found a lost dog which i believe it the owner don't wan it liao... sad ..... nvm... i hate this kind of person..... argzzzz after which i go home lor... reach home nth to do contiune my study lor... then play game...
today nth to do al i did was play play play the wash my shirts...... alot to wash think abt 4 full nvm... forget it..... anyway nw watching tv n changing my blogskin don't like the one i having nw very blank haiz..... haha ok la nth to say liao by by
blogged @7:47 PM
Thursday, May 05, 2005
Ahhh... i nv finish my social studies die.... last qus nv get to finish it.... sad... nvm i think i can pass.... study like hell haha no la onli like the day itself ..... but before tat i got study one lor.... really... nvm haha... i very sian nw u know.... o ya u know ms chithria our discipline misterss i think is like tat spell one la ..... she also know got blog this kind of thing leh..... n u know wat.... she read some of our blog.... hahahaha cool rite.. she told us today morning.... nv knew she know about blog this kind of thing.... hahaha..... rite nw the IT lab teacher is scolding some people.... very scary.... hahahaha not my problem anyway.....
one more week to go before common test finish ...... yes i going to library this coming sat 7 may..... around 12 like tat anybody wan to join us.... study i mean not playing no time for tat.... if u wan to join call or msg me at my hp.....
think tat all i have for today..... bye tata sayonara
blogged @1:34 PM
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
Consumed by the darkness as the angels begin to call
Will I stand in their presence or to my knees will I fall?
Dazed in a trance as they slowly come near
Screaming and gleaming with beauty and fear
As one Angel came up to me and touched my face
She smiled so sweetly and took my place
As darkness passed through her and light through me
She fell to the floor dying for me
An Angel's death was taking place
Right there in front of my face
Black tears were falling from her crystal eyes
As the other angels kissed her goodbye
Upon her face the smile remained
As her silky white gown was slowly stained
Covered in blood and sacred tears
Screaming and gleaming with beauty and fear
blogged @5:15 PM
he look handsome.... although he is no longer in this world...... today we went to istana to show our respects to him.... alot of people there..... alot... anyway....today i have my geog paper... n i think i going to fail coz i nv study....... enough...... don't ask y..... then tml is chinese n i know i going to pass i think.... ya today went to istana....then saw my frenz from AISS..... cool rite... but they look so formal untill i donno wat to say..... scary... when we went in.... the place is so big that u can play hide n seek n u will nv find each other..... ya it's tat big...... shit man .... i can't even roll on my house floor... haiz... we went in... very nice... saw mr wee inside his****** ya cannot say it out.... but it he look cool n handsome.... i salute him.... mr wee u rock..... haiz nth to say liao i think so tata by lets wish i'm still alive tml hahahahahah lame by.......
blogged @4:58 PM
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
today common test english don't know can pass anot..... nvm tat..... nw i'm angry with *****.... he thinks tat people like me should not be given a chance to change...... yes i know my fault n i should not complain much abt it but look wat if u were in my shoes...... how would u feel abt it ... angry rite..... haiz.... nvm if tat is how this going to be then i have nth to say..... for all i know nw is to study hard for my exam n balance my time with my frenz n my gf....... i don't wan to lost any of them.....they all are important to me......for ***** i don't give a damn abt it liao.... not my problem anymore.... i have say sry n try to undo my mistake but he don't wan to give me a chance i have nth to say...... for those who know who i'm toking abt pls do not go look for 'it'... which i think u all will not rite....hehe.....
next 'n' level coming soon.... onli three month left...... haiz 'die' stress.... very stress.... but i will study hard for it..... n i going to drop my a math..... i really cannot take it anymore.... this is the onli one i cannot take it anymore i cannot cope with it.....haiz sad..... anyway this is going to be the things i going to do for this year untill 'n' level finish....
1) STUDY STUDY STUDY HARD FOR EVERY THING.... HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
2)still trying to balance my time with everybody......
3)DON'T CARE ABT ***** :P
ok gtg have to study for my geog which is tml bye gd luck for everybody.......:)
blogged @5:00 PM
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