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Sunday, July 30, 2006

been thinking of this qus for a very long time....am i someone or no one.... lots of people hate me more then like me..... people use me as a tool... onli come look for me when they needed me.... but totally forget who i am when they c me......i know there r people who really care for me.... however.... the feeling of not wanted is still there....

everyday i wake up i will be thinking wat will happen...... y am i still here.... am i here for a reason... or jus being here.... really....

my family nv make me feel better.... they onli make me feel worse.... the onli people i'm happy being with r my godbros and sis, frenz and her.....but how many frenz do i really have...how long can they be with me..... i may know alot of people.... but not all r my frenz..... and there is one i hope to be frenz with again.... it hurt me a lot... when i c people have lesser worry then i do... at least their action tell me tat...

my heart is not like last time anymore.... i'm less happy.... less hyper.... but more naggig... more unhappy day by day..... gd memorise fade away from my mind.... unhappy though fill up every space of my mind...... leaving no space for anything but sadness n anger.....my life is like a big fish being trap in a small fish tank of nth but water...... all alone

my studies suck like hell..... and my o lvl r coming..... am i going to make it.... or jus drop out.... i dun know......people look down on me ... they think i jus act poor thing so people can care for me more........ i have tried to be stronge... but i fail ... i cannot do it.... i'm weak.... i'm jus acting to be stronge.....i'm lousy ... i suck

i'm confuse... very confuse... and no one can help me.... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... no one

blogged @3:09 PM

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19 years old
12 march 1989

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小强

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Room of my own
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Nitendo DS light
PS3
Better studies

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