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Sunday, April 30, 2006

haiz ..... today is jus like any other day. i wake up watch tv... eat... only that i when out to get my shirt to wash. i met up with shawn today. ask him to help me with some stuff. i find it funny, last time, i don't like him cause i though he was like samuel.... but now we are friends... how funny can tat be...... i also met up with my mother and sister to have our dinner together.
the washing and drying of my shirt took like 2 hours... so long.. wait untill so long. thank god shawn was around to keep me accompany. after which he help me carry the shirt home... it was two big load you know. so heavy.... the moment i reach home i throw the shirt on my bed untill now i still have not keep it.. later must keep liao if not sister will scold me.

all because of me, shawn get scolding by his mother don't know how many time already you know. haiz my fault.......o well..... then i went to play maple with my brother(my god brother but i treat as close as my real brother)*NOT GLEN OK* but he say something that make me very angry.... haiz i don't blame him i was at wrong also.... i was angry cause he say things without thinking. you all must be thinking then i so angry for what..... well cause i treat him as my brother. and i care for him... other then one other person... he is the next one i care about... haiz these few weeks too many things happened.. my temper also very bad... i shouted at one of my junior one week ago... it was my fault la not his.... sorry about that.... i also had a fight with my sister .. i cried.... don't ask why.. it been very long since i last cried.

haiz my o level chinese is coming soon and so many things is happening... i sometime really cannot take it anymore... i feel like jump down and my life... but there is always somethings that stop me from doing tat... i don't know what... maybe is my family, maybe is my friends, maybe is my brother or her. i don't know too many things to think very painful.there is too many trouble surrounding me... and i don't know who to talk to about it ... cause no one understand me. why do i have to face this kind of things i'm jus 17 can't i just live like a normal 17....

sometime i really wonder why i am here. is there a purpose for me to be here. god please tell me i cannot take it anymore. i'm not like who i am anymore, i like sad songs more then happy songs, i like sad things more then happy things and i think of sad things more then happy things. what is going on.....having to live in a family that there is no love is already very hurtful... why izzit there is no one to help me...

look like no one can help me bye bye

blogged @9:05 PM

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12 march 1989

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